" I told you, I like how you hold yo blunt ... "

I don't know where this pattern is coming from. it needs to change. quickly. anyway today I had company at my house. we discussed business. or rather what we're doing tomorrow / whos going with who / what time / all that good shit and some. I definitely plan on getting overly ... zooted. I'm in the greenzone right now.

sadatay !

alright, and I have an uberly big fuck you to all you niggas and your goddamn BBQs. I mean everybodys at one today. I hate y'all. :/ and I found out some extremely sad shit about my dads crazy ex-girlfriend today. " ooooh. that's why she's gained so much weight? " queenBees is a long ass television series. never try to stay up and watch the whole thing in one night.

apparently my new name is jeanri jae. HA. I got a borderline stalkerish message on myspace, on some " I've been crushing on you from afar. I go to your page a lot yet never comment you. " I WAS NOT IMPRESSED. I pressed delete and kept it moving. erm I'm going to make myself a myspace babie. I made jarell one last night. her name is janiyah anderson. ( LMFAOOOOOO ). I shall holla.

Gettin high with my animals in our cage.

I haven't accomplished ... anything today. my niece went to a birthday party for her best friend adora, and I walked over there to get her and met this girl jalissa. I saw her on my way to class one day but didn't acknowledge her. eh its a small world. anyway we talked for a minute. she's extra cute, with her orange / red hair and tounge ring. I shall bag.

I KID.

I also met some country ass mothafucka on my way home from the party. I'm guessing he just moved out here. asking me what the fuck is there to do. I told him about the party tonight on the northside. then I guess he took that as an invitation to walk me home. his fat ass. I was not impressed. I also got a call about a job and my dad decided to take it upon himself to tell them I didn't want it. "nigga ... you did WHAT?" yeah. basically.

I wanna give you everything ...

I woke up today at 4pm. which is amazing considering I didn't do shit last night and I went to sleep early ( compared to other days ). anddd my daddy is definitely not on my good side right now. I hella miss my mom at times like these. but she's not coming back until tuesday. which is pointless because I'd have to come back here wednesday and probably won't get back there until thursday evening. anddd my dad heard that I missed class so he wants me to stay here after next week so he can keep "an eye" on me.

nigga...?

I had promised myself that I was gonna flat iron my hair but after watching forgetting sarah marshall and being entertained by drey and vanessa, I didn't feel like it anymore. boo to me. I'm assuming dreys at his family reunion or BBQ or whatever you wanna call that shit. I bet hes sticking out badly, with his pale skin and curly ass hair in his high ponytail. LOL. I hope hes enjoying himself though. with millions of stories to tell me about how he had some bomb ass fried chicken and / or koolaid and watermelons. and maybe he'll stop thinking black children are bastards ( but probably not ).

" I'm not impressed. "

I don't know what to do with my goddamn page. this shit is seriously bothering the fuck outta me. I decided to re-blog because I wasn't feeling the last one. I'm on my brothers laptop and this shit is hella sexy. the blue lights around the keyboard and all. I fucking think I'm in love ( sorry drey ). speaking of drey. I'm still amazed at the sight of the mexicans laying in the parking lot. LOL. talk about a bitch laughing her assss off. hee-larious.

jeondrey: i brushed, flossed twice, and still can taste it.

I cleaned up the kitchen today. trying to help my dad out around the house more. and practicing to be a good wifey for ... welp, y'all know. um. anyway I had made plans to go shopping tomorrow with my best friend, but eh. of course now she's on her " I don't know if I'm going because yada yada blah blah ect. " and all that good shit. it's cool though, I'm hardly suprised. last night the phone conversation I held with deondrey and vanessa ( before metro started trippin ) was extremely interesting. I ah .. I'm not at liberty to discuss it.

I've come clean to be a bigger individual.

I'm home y'all. like at my actual house, not my moms. theres nothing to eat here. I haven't eaten anything except starbursts and a pickle all day. ;/ I know my dads strugglin right now so I'm not gonna bother him about it. but anywho, I got all prettied up in the hair and nail area today. everything was cheap as fuck so I'm content. my mom went to go see her boyfriend up in maryland and my grandmas going somewhere tomorrow. and that house is fucking haunted, I didn't wanna stay there alone.

...but it really is haunted.

I saw the strangest sights as I walked home. a gang of spanish mothafuckas ( yes, I did look for drey ) were laying in a goddamn parking lot surrounded by bikes. lmfao I was scared for my life as I walked past them. they looked like some sorta gualla cult or something. amazing. erm ... this blogging shit is becoming extremely overrated. I'll holla when / if something interesting happens.

Seventy random facts.

  • I can play the piano, clarinet and flute. I've always wanted to learn how to play the guitar.
  • I hella wanna go to greece someday. I would go tomorrow if I could. It looked beautiful in ' sisterhood of the traveling pants. ' :/
  • my favorite clothing store is forever 21. hollister and journeys come close behind.
  • I wear jewelry all the time, even if its just to walk to the store.
  • my feet are small and sometimes I hate it because most of the good shoes don't have my size.
  • my favorite movie is knocked up and my favorite character in it is the little girl sadie. my best friend tells me I look like her babie sister. yeah.
  • I think I'm addicted to blogging. but I'm somewhat getting over that.
  • I've been to new york, maryland, north carolina, washington dc, california, new jersey, florida, virginia, atlanta ... trinidad and jamaica. :]
  • I like neck kissing. I'd actually perfer it than getting kissed on the lips.
  • I've been called overly immature and told I have a shitty attitude. ha.
  • I think drinking is disgusting and pointless but weed is okay.
  • I'd love to have a studio apartment somewhere in new york. but I doubt thats gonna happen.
  • I had the flu once. it was horrible but I want it again because I got to lay in bed and do nothing for five days.
  • I want a baby boy pitbull that I can name bullet.
  • my worst physical fight was november 06.
  • I kinda wanna work in a book store. only because I'd get to get books for cheap BUT I know it'd probably be boring as hell.
  • my dream gun is an uzi.
  • I wanna meet marilyn monroe. I think she was the bomb diggity.
  • I have one brother, one half brother and one half sister.
  • I'd like to have children. they make me happy.
  • I remember my first crush. I was in pre-k and his name was jerome. I stopped liking him because I was standing next to him one day and I noticed he had eyelashes. I thought only girls were supposed to have them. then he started liking me. go figure.
  • I had a boyfriend named jerome in second grade ( no relation ) and I found out he had like four girlfriends. he only went out with me because he knew I liked him. I beat him up during recess and pushed his face in the dirt. :/ and I remember his cousin dayday went out with momo. LMFAO DAMN.
  • my natural hair is black, and I've dyed it all shades of brown and blonde.
  • I almost drowned once when I was small. I accidentally swam to the grown up part of the pool. some black guy saved me.
  • I was voted nicest smile in my school. I wanted to go for best dressed.
  • I hate the rain when its cloudy, but I like it when its sunny.
  • I refuse to drink anything with less than two ice cubes.
  • I cut my hair twice a month every month for the past two years.
  • when I was little I used to sleep with my butt in the air.
  • I freakin fell out of a tree and scraped my stomach up when I was smaller. it was during a family reunion.
  • at that same family reunion, I sang the boy is mine by brandy and monica. LOL.
  • everytime I see family they remind me of that. especially my cousin, bee.
  • I sleep silently. or so he says.
  • I have a goofy laugh. or so he says. it changes a lot.
  • I have a babyvoice. or so he says.
  • I played volleyball and the only reason my ex came to my games was because he liked to see me in the shorts. he told me.
  • I have six beauty marks.
  • I love the smell of gasoline. but everytime I go to a gas station I feel like the cars gonna explode and I get paranoid.
  • I think frankenstein is a sad story. womp.
  • I've danced in the rain before. in a big ass shirt. it was cold.
  • I freakin hate peanut butter & jelly sandwiches. I'd perfer something with cheese.
  • I had about four train sets when I was younger. and a bunch of little electric race cars with the tracks.
  • I love talking on the phone.
  • my mom was in labor with me for seven hours. I was born somewhere around midnight.
  • I have a light scar going across my chest.
  • my grandma calls me kitty. its so fucking embaressing.
  • I can't color inside the lines. it bothers me.
  • I had my first period at 11 and I was in class.
  • my right eye is a lot stronger than the left one, so I concentrate with that one more. and the lenses on the left are stronger.
  • I used to dance. I was really good and tried out for some music videos. YEAH, it was that serious.
  • I don't stretch anymore but I can still do a split.
  • the white boy in phil of the future is extremely cute.
  • I love fruit salads! strawberries are my favorite fruit. and mango.
  • when I was six my brother hit me in the eye with a belt and I had to get surgery. they put me to sleep and I remember waking up and my mom was next to me and some boy was crying near me. but I couldn't open my eyes.
  • I love surprises, but only good ones.
  • I'm not romantic, and I rather my boyfriend take me to an amusement park than out to eat. anddd I rather go on a roller coaster than a ferris wheel.
  • I went to a christian camp when I was younger and still remember most of the songs. I sang them to my boyfriend. :/
  • I don't bite my nails, I chew them. I'm trying to get outta that habit.
  • I have to watch a funny movie a couple times before I actually laugh at it.
  • saw two was good but I never got around to watching the full saw three. I always get disgusted during the first few minutes.
  • I hate crossing the street at the lights but I can do it in the middle of the block.
  • I love green tea.
  • my favorite dress is BCBG with black and white polka dots.
  • I hate guys who wear more gucci, fendi and prada than me. uber gay.
  • I've met most of my friends at the mall or at parties.
  • I rather drink gatorade than anything else.
  • taco bell. yum.
  • once I swallowed a penny while trying to make it disappear in my mouth. I had to get an x-ray. I was proud.
  • I think studying the way people think is the most interesting thing to study.

if you try it, then you'll love it!

alright so since my last post was just a huge ass vent, I felt I needed to get that one out of the way. I'm currently sitting my ass in front of the television / computer, watching spongebob / blogging. my hair is in this high ass ponytail, I've got my glasses on ( because I can't keep straining my eyes ) and I'm wearing nothing more than a bra and boxers. my fat ass legs are curled up under me and I think they're beginning to fall asleep. I have nothing better to do with my life at this time. I'm waiting for this cluck cluck to finish her classes and shit and HOLLA AT ME. I want to get this hair shit over and fucking done with. I refuse to be up longer than I have to. foreal.

her: what are you doing, man?
me: I'm trying to play bejewled. it won't work on this website though.
her: yeah? what website?
me: uh some msn shit ... zee one?
her: aka zone? :/

I felt hella dumb. did y'all realize that SQUIDWARD is that nigga? yes mothafuckas. squidward. squidward tenticles. or however the fuck you spell that mess. tennicals? tennacals. whatever. spell check is absent on this computer. LOL. and I have noooo idea what the fuck I did to my posts page when I was fucking with my settings. I'm confused. oh. somebody please remind me to add that pocket full of sunshine song to my blog? thank you all.

eh. I'll holla.

Trifflin niggas.

Blah. I'm home, sitting on the couch. Once again I'm tired as fuck. I can't go to sleep though because I'm gonna do this bitches hair. And I know if I lay down I'm definitely not getting my ass back up. I'm still mad she tried me last night. On some dead buttcheeks serious shit.

Me: hello?
Her: yeah, ay I don't have all the money, is that cool?
Me:- thinks
Me: how much you got?
Her: $25.
Me: bitch ... now you know I ain't about to do your hair for no damn $25. don't waste my time.
Her: yeah but thats all I got...
Me: you better find the rest somewhere then holla at me.
Her: yeah but -

Thennn I hung up. The bitch came to her senses when she texted me this morning talking about she'd buy all the shit, and give me $35. I was tempted to say no & cuss her out for even asking me some crazy shit like that last night but I need the money. So I took it. But I hope she doesn't expect me to do my very best. I'ma make sure the tracks fall out in a week ( immature, I know ). But we had a goddamn deal. You cannot rely on black females. She's supposed to be coming in a few hours. ;/ I hope I hold out.

I ended up not going to lunch with Mel, Raphael & Cee. I wasn't in the best mood at the time so I told them to make it another day and I'll make sure to be there. Maybe I lied. Oops? Anyway, Tasha called me a little while ago. She wanted me to go to the mall with her real quick to return a dress. Um ... bitch no. I'm not about to spend money to run to the mall and return one goddamn dress. Please. As much as I love your spic ass ...

You know what I hate more than anything? LIARS. Especially when I do something good for you and you wanna fucking lie about it. Let me give you an expample : when my nigga didn't have money, and I did .. I let him hold $15. He fucking BEGGED me for the money. I told him over and over again I didn't want to but eventually he talked me into it. Mind you, this was at the beginning of July. This nigga has a job. He gets paid every other week. We were talking on aim and he was telling me how he owes this nigga some money and he was tryna dodge him. He told me he wanted me to help him stay outta this niggas way. I come with the " oh ... wheres my $15? " Lmao my nigga said what $15. " THE MONEY I LENT TO YOU, MOTHAFUCKA. " Oh ... you ain't lend me shit. You offered me that money.

... ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?

I didn't even know what to say. It's not even the fact that I'm not getting my money back, its just that ... hes gonna try to play me like I'm stupid or some shit. Lmao. I really laughed. I LOL'd. Seriously. There was no sense in arguing with him though. If he don't wanna gimmie my money then thats his decision. I just closed the window and went about my business. Talk about a bitch never lending niggas money AGAIN. Goddamn.

Theres my big assrant for you all. I'll holla.

Cake anybody?

Eh. I'm kinda iffy about a lot tonight. A lotta shits been on my mind. Its not big enough to discuss but at the same time its definitely not small enough for me to ignore. Maybe its just me being paranoid, once again. I get like that. Moving on.

I made a chocolate cake when I got home. It has two layers & shit. I covered it with vanilla icing. I dunno why I made it since I don't want any cake. :/ Who flippin cares.

My classes today were decent. I'm actually considering getting my certificate. I don't want to because I feel like that should've been accomplished when I graduated and I don't like backtracking. But the more I think about it, the more I feel I'm gonna regret it in the future, when I'm working some lame office job with a family to feed. Blah :/, I'm confusing myself. I need to take a chill pill or two.

I'm also thinking of picking up a history class. Idk, they have history in movies, history in music, yada yada. All that good shit here. My dad thinks I should but I don't wanna be in school longer than I already am. I be tired as shit when I get home. Getting home 2 + hours later, plus more work definitely won't make me happy. I'm already stressed enough. I haven't gotten homework yet and I'm not looking forward to the day that shit starts. Melquan & raphael ( the dudes in my english class ) invited cee & I to lunch tomorrow. Idk, I didn't decline since I was just ranting about my need to make more friends up here. We'll see.

I watched the westside story movie last night. It was aight. I was upset that they had white people playing spanish immigrants like they couldn't just go to florida or california and find one. Natalie wood. She annoyed the fuck outta me in the movie with her fake ass spanish accent. Crying over that nigga when her brother died. "BERNARDOS DEAD? OKAY BUT IS TONY ALRIGHT?" Bitch BOO. Pfsh. And anita! Those boys almost raped her man. :[ I wanted to beat them up. And chino! Ugh, his dumbass shooting tony. I swear I get too into movies. Yelling at the screen and the whole nine. You people would hate to watch movies with me. I promise you that.

I so regret not buying that belt. On my life, I've been thinking about it all flippin day. I want it so bad. It'd match my outfit for this weekend. Jeez. Talk about a bitch never going against her gut feeling AGAIN.

I LOST MY FAVORITE WHITE TEE. I swear it was the perfect fit, stretchy and everything. I cannot find a shirt like that anywhere else. Trust me. I've looked. And the store I bought it at is a good hour away from my house. Do any of you niggas wanna go get me another one? $6.00 is all.

Eh. I think I'm gonna go chill for now. I have shit heavy on my mental that I need to think about. Holla?

Bus ride downtown.

I'm currently on the bus straining myself to stay awake. I'm so goddamn tired. I can't even explain it. Its all dreys fault. Bad way to start off the school year & shit. Whatever. I met someone new today. Her name is cee. Idk what it stands for because I was too tired to ask. :/

There's a party this weekend I'm gonna be hitting up. The way people are making it sound, the niggas throwing it are the bomb diggity. I highly doubt it but I won't put my foot in my mouth before I see for myself. I wanna meet more chill people that I go to school with. These dumb ass people I've met so far are not cutting it. Excluding cee & some nigga damon. I mean, so far they aight. But I'd rather chill by my lonely than chill odee with the other people I've met so far. Lol. Bite me.

Last night was nice. I give drey the business. Foreal. & he says the picture of me on the side accentuates my big head and makes it look like I'm staring at my blog. That's creepy, huh? Imagine a giant jeanri. That'd be too cool. Lmao. - pop locks

My nigga wanted me to do her hair today. Perm, conditioning treatment, weave ... yada yada. All that good shit. She's paying me $50 for it all. Not including the weave, which she'd like for me to pick out for her. I'm probably / most likely gonna do it when I get home ( I'm on my way to the dentists ).

I regret not getting my certificate for that cosmetology shit. :/ Foreal. And yo, I hella want another tattoo. And my lip pierced. Drey doesn't want me to get them though. He thinks they'll make me uglier than I already am. He also thinks I have an attitude problem. I beg to differ!

Its freaking nice outside man. I feel shitty though. My eyebrows are fucking up, man. And if you have ugly eyebrows you might as well put a bag over your face. In my opinion, at least. Erm. These girls sitting across from me look a hot ass steamy mess. And they think they doing something too, with their nappy weaves, shoelace headbands, and chinese slippers. LOL. I must stop. Alright.

THIS IS THE END OF THE ROAD.


On a brighter note, I'm not tired anymore. I definitely did a good job keeping myself entertained. Lol, Bbl. I'm tired of this typing. My thumbs are starting to hurt.

Officially computer-less.

Todays the nineteenth. Its been a year. I ain't gone tear though y'all. I promise. - looks away.

I'm laying in bed ( at my house ) updating from my sidekick. Today has been ... welp, y'all know the drill by now. Drey had his first day at work and I stayed home being a loser. And guess what else? MY GODDAMN COMPUTER CRASHED. Yep ... that's right. I did what any other jeanri would do though. I kicked the fuck outta that bitch and then begged it to work. Lmao man fuck windows and their shitty selves. I hate their faces. ( I'm blogging out of anger right now, btw. ) Ironically though, I don't care much. And I'm not in too much of a rush to get the shit fixed neither. My sidekick will suffice for now. Typing my little ass thumbs off. Hell yeah.

I know when school starts ( there I go breaking my promise to myself again ) and I have to type papers and shit, my whole mentality about this will change. Until then though...

Onto other shit. Niggas have decided that this is the week to try to ease their way back into my life. Y'all black asses ain't slick. I see yous! Blah blah love blah blah. Y'all are terrible. Just terrible. And not for nothing ... I was extremely rude to my used - to - be buddy. On some, " mothafucka you know I'm ignoring you so fuck off " type shit. Um ... :/ I have no excuse. Just like erin jarell anderson has no excuse as to why he fucks the bitches he fucks. C'mon now, my nigga. Let me upgrade you. You no right! - shakes my finger in his face.

I came home to this big container of giant pretzels. I was in awe. We all know I eat too much though. And the picture on the side proves it. I know I look a hot ass terrible mess but ... he likes it? That's all that matters. And those chinese niggas doing the flips on the olympics are lowkey cute. Seriously... :/ my taste is changing dramatically. What happened to the jon that liked the black ass dreaded niggas? Lawd...

I believe deondrey has been sleeping for the past few hours. Few meaning like ... four or something. But eh I could be wrong. This is just what I believe. I brought him lunch at work today, lmao. Last night we were trippin over this shit foreal. I don't know what was good with that. I just hope he doesn't forget about me now that he joined corperate america. Joke, joke. We all know what he's coming home to. Right? Right. Fall off.

Final thought: I wish life had an undo button.

Okay.

- sits on the edge of the bed & kicks my feet.

Serious final thought: Bloggers been around since ninety nine? Who woulda fucking thunk it... I wonder who blogged back then. Lmao.


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