Calm down.

" The African elders believed that what you sow, you will reap. If you do something positive, something positive will come back to you. If you consciously do negative things, negativity will rule your life. "

Eh. I'm currently sitting on this big ass burgandy leather couch at Jasmines house with Melquan and Mickey. Jas' daughter Saniahs here. "I live with my father but he kicked me out of his house! He doesn't want me anymore." Damn. She's too smart for her own good, I swear. I walked around with her to Dunkin Donuts, the African shopping center & all that. She wants everything she sees. Water, toy pianos, coffee... everything. She's been hyper as fuck since three, and its now eight. Somebody needs to take this battery out her back. She makes me want a little girl, kinda.

Melquan let me line up his facial hair. I'm surprised he let me because I wouldn't have let me. I did good though. Lol. My beef patty is in the oven ( because they don't have a goddamn microwave ). I was looking for a canvas tote bag. I couldn't find one anywhere.

Me and TishTash texted back and forth for a little bit today. She wants me to go over there tomorrow and do her hair. Wash, straighten, color. Yada yada. I'll do it depending on what time I'm up & about. I also wanna get my nails re-done. BLIMPIES CALLED ME, Y'ALL. Who's a bawss? I am, I am! - chicken noodle soups

Text message received:
Ur tha ultimate violator

Boy you know I'm all about you & me...
But you slowly losing me when you keep accusing me...

I'll holla.

Some people live just for the fame...

can you picture us loving each other for life?
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goddamn. I haven't got much to say. I feel a lot better, thank the lord ( or whomever deserves the credit ). I woke up and my body wasn't cramping, my nose wasn't filled with disgusting liquids ( they dried overnight lmao ) and my throat wasn't nearly as sore as it was the night before. but now I'm scared to go outside in anything less than my huge ass northface in the morning.

ehm. I watched back at the barnyard with the love of my life this morning. that show actually had me laughing. I swear drey looks like the girl cow. speaking of cows, I really wanna milk one. I also wanna go cow tipping. on friday I learned that a killer whale is so big that if it gets stuck on land it'll die because the organs on the top will squish the organs on the bottom. interesting.

text message recieved:
Bitch i said wat u doin today bitch

I went out to dinner with my goons. they brought a whole big group of people that I've never seen before in my life but they claim they go to school with me so whatever. we had hella fun though. but talk about not being able to bring niggas anywhere. no fucking home training what so ever. I swear. this nigga said I have a pitbull nose. LOL. I keep getting compared to dogs. but um... something big at my school is coming up. I'm lightweight excited. I'll holla.

We'll tiptoe to the sun...

maybe I speak in general now, but boy I'ma do whatever just to keep a grin on you now.

text message recieved:
She wrote me a letter talking about she loves me and evverything I do to her and how i look in her eyes and shit lmao and said plz write back. Hell naaaaw.

I'm currently making an attempt to update my playlist but I cannot seem to find songs that make my ears feel good. blah. it's official, I'm sick! and not just with a cold... I think I have the flu. my whole freaking body is in pain. I wanna just curl up in my bed under my blanket and die. somebody come put me outta my misery please. ehh. I got my hair done today. I hate when they try to trim my hair. leave that shit to me. the dominican place I usually go to when I'm out here was closed so I had to settle for the next best thing. I wasn't too pleased but maria will hear about this next time I go there to get my hairs did.

I found all these old pictures of my niece when she was a little fat munchkin. I swear she was cutest thing in the world, her little fat yellow ass. my mom also decied to take the initative and show my friend baby pictures / elementary school pictures of me. that was when I was in my awkward stage though so its not fair. my grandma has a video called " buns & abs of steel " that shes been watching, and now shes walking around the house in her spandex workout clothes ( while we have company ... making it a million times worse ). I'm so embarrassed. - sighs

my little cousin keeps taking my aim away messages. its so annoying because once she takes them all her friends take them. then my away message quotes and what not are freaking everywhere. and its not just one away message, its like everytime I change mine to get away from them, she follows. what the fuck?! I wanna punch her in the goddamn face. little asian bitches.

Some people want it all...

this one will be longer than usual. my big friday night rant. enjoy.

lately I've been having the weirdest dreams in the world. I swear :/ and I think they really mean something. smh. I had one about pakistan ... one about bibles and now one about my stepmom. I must be trippin.

alejandro gomez aim screenname is kimkardashian50.

I swear this is the illest spanish boy in life ( not counting my boyfriend - y'all know hes the bomb diggity ). minus him being slightly homo though. I never noticed how chill he is and we had classes together every year since I've moved here. LOL. amazing. anyway I'm helping my neice write an speech for her campaign shit. she's running for president of the second grade and shit. personally I don't think they should be allowed to do the shit that early because they're too young to understand that if they don't win they're not failures at life. but yanno, whatever. its cute in a sense. I'm also coming down with a cold. my nose is running, my throat is sore and I hate it. I guess its a homecoming gift from this mark ass nigga winter. goddamn.

paragraph three ( more or less ). I plan on watching john q or antoine fisher later on tonight. I still think this song "leaving tonight" by neyo and jennifer hudson goes extremely hard. I shall keep it on repeat ( along with "last time" by trey songz ) all night. or until the love wears out. my night spent with dreynasty / toothpick was amazing as usual. slurp slurp spit. I didn't stay up long enough to hear his seal noises. aw man. but I did listen to him tell me how much he loves me and all that. beautiful. I've realized that natasha* has the unique and infuriating ability to piss me off in ways I've never been pissed off before. seriously. in ways I never knew possible. I'm just assuming she wants to be killed by me though. the thing is, shes impossible to stay mad at. it kills me.

ugh. sometimes I think there are people shaped holes in my memory. sometimes I try hard to erase people, to rub them out. like a picture. I try to forget people so much that I get so used to ignoring them / the fact they exist and then its like... they never "happened". I guess... I know there are people shaped holes in my memory.

:/

I made it rain on her once, bitch couldn't say thank you.

dr.pena: c'mon kenny. I'm giving you a zero. a ZERO. you do know what that is, don't you?
kenny: yes.
dr.pena: good.
dr.pena: - walks away
kenny: suck a dick!

funniest thing ever. anyway I currently have $1000 baby bucks on myspace. I don't know where the fuck it came from. I guess little alyssa ( shes in elementary school now, my boos growing up! ) decided to go make mommys money while I was neglecting her. tough love is what I call it. drey has had my attention all night / day. I laid down and listened to his little dinosaur snores as I tried to fall asleep. cutest thing ever, I promise you. I was contemplating my next tattoo with natasha*. she says I seem like an ankle - tat type of person. I disagree. my mom started her new job today and shes like a freaking little kid on her first day of school, all in my texts and shit. " first day of work! love you! " seriously mom? lmao aight.

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xjaebabyy: I love you!
The Che: [AWAY] my junks so long that it hangs and swings, so at the nude beach people think im lookin for lost rings

piff on deck
The Che: lmaoooo
The Che: random
xjaebabyy: =D
xjaebabyy: - grabs your shoulders & shakes you
xjaebabyy: SAY IT BACK BITCH
The Che: lmao
The Che: i actually turned around
The Che: i thought you were gonna do that
The Che: iloveyoutoo
xjaebabyy: Lmao
xjaebabyy: ...I'll be watching you.
The Che: creepy.

Brotherly love, kid.

Tat on her titty, got my name for a tattoo.

text message received:
This nigga pauliee told me too invite you too this party on sat nite in tha vee . Lmao . Tuh ! Told him we in there . Troopin it lmfaoo !

I don't know what the fuck is good with the wildlife in North Carolina. I think some animals decided to build a nest somewhere on my property because every night I hear some dog / cat / seacow cries. I swear to god I'm not going outside to find out what that shit is. I'm so not with this shit. Anyway, I'm currently in my bed listening to the cries of the wolves and texting Toothpick ( Deondrey ). Our night was nice as usual. Not to mention ... erm. Y'all know.

Oh man.

Today was swell. Minus the goddamn interview. I hate the boss bitch already. Goddamn bitch ass. Bird bitch. Lemme see her ass in the streets. Word is bond! Okay, anyway she had a slight attitude about her that I wasn't really feeling. We will clash. I see it already. Its alright though - Blimpies here I come! And I'm doing so great in school right now that I'm basically waiting for when I slip up. Shit is bound to happen. Foreal. I'm putting in work though, y'all.

Killing me softly.

Smh @ my next possible / most likely tat being $170. Who can afford shit like that? Nigga what? Nigga WHO? Reason number three million as to why I need a goddamn job.

text message received:
Yeeehhhhh boyyy! i be beastin in the pussy

Trueee. Aight. Its been a long, terrible day. I'm hella comfortable in my hoodie and sweats, and my hair half wrapped. The other half fell, due to my lack of pins. I'm currently posted up in the V filling out job apps. for dunkin donuts. And blimpies. LOL. Picture me bawlin? Shit. There's an angry ass white baby at my feet. I'm scared of angry white babies. They the worst. Anywho me and the semi - booman Monster face were cakedup all night. It was nice. My moms still all =D on receiving his text message. Lmao. He's definitely something to brag about. I couldn't ask for more. Foreal.

Lemme find out this nigga Narada died ( cough motha fuckin COUGH ). What in the hayull? Talk about shit outta luck. Womp womp womp. End.

One shot to your heart without breaking the skin.

text message recieved:
Ima give you some dope brain if you let me tonight

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"a heart ain't a brain but I think that I still love you." I'm sitting in my favorite chair with my brown and blue blanket once again. I made some bangin ass green tea. my brother isn't home and ... I guess he doesn't really know where he is. smh. niggas turned my kitchen into a bakery tonight. cupcakes, cookies and what - not. I wasn't mad though. the cupcakes were poppin. and I helped eyshawn clean up his room. shit was a goddamn pigsty. foreal. this nigga had hardcore porn magazines / dvds / vhs scattered everywhere. huge titties and big asses and shit. serious business. "nigga... I gets no pussy." I shall have a talk with his baby moms.

my nigga brian is being accused of having sex with our sociology teacher. "nah... shes too with it!" he be posted outside her classroom, spotted by her car and shit. lmaoo trifflin. I had no energy earlier today. I considered taking my pills but those shits make me wanna puke. I'll pass. y'all don't mind the picture of my huge asshead on the side, there. drey was being a monster last night, too. aw man. "you be a donut and I'll be an eclaaaaaair." I don't know what to do with his white ass anymore. huge sigh.

btw, I started writing again.

You have to heal your heart.

I'm currently super peaceful. on some real shit. pause the music and let this play.


india arie is bumping through my speakers and I'm sitting in my favorite chair with my blanket on my legs. its brick outside and I'm not really feeling it. but that only means christmas is that much closer. nobodys online for me to talk to but thats completely okay. sometimes I'm my own best company. I feel good / optimistic about everything right now. he* did the cutest thing ever. and I'm on cloud twenty one. when you let shit go everything eventually falls into place. I love it. I think I may write tonight.

you can give or you can take...

AND you masturbate to bust.

the great: you still jobless?!
the great: LMAOO
the great: @ the fact you been deined numerous times of a job
the great: i remember you was trying to cop a 9-5 back in
May..
the great: ROFL!
the great: woooooooooooooooooow
hypee.kills: LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

damn. t-mobile still be on that bouleshit. I can't even sign on to view these pics some secret person been sending me for the past week or two. andddd I'm gonna call up dunkin donuts tomorrow around two and ask about that goddamm job. I need money for my tats / peircings / food / clothes. my dad is no longer dependable, I tell you that much. females is way too goddamn with it. I'M APPAULED. this niggas venting in my myspace inbox about me being heartless and yada yada. shut the fuck up. and who is this texting me from narada phone? ( umm - LMAO ). I'll holla.

Yo the truth be told, you ain't told a soul...

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when its you against the world, the world always wins. :/ I'm currently sitting on my bed indian style with face mask on. I look like a goddamn monster, but its all good. I haven't really got shit to say. not much has happened since I last updated. I was thinking about my future with natasha* a lot today. I found the coldest winter ever hidden in my brothers room ( hmm ) and I'm extra hyped. its my favorite book in thee world. and I had a blackhead, that was the hardest thing in the world to pop. damn.

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nobody makes more poppin sugar - aid than I. y'all can thank me. that's hours of community service and shit. btw train ride is the worst movie ever, I swear to goddamn. mickey made me watch it. and this nick cannon song reminds me of tasha. oh mah gawd. I'm gonna send it to her, lmao. holla though.

You gotta be signed to sony ...

man, nah! I ain't eem fuck her dat much doe ...
dawg how many times you fuck that bitch?
man I only fucked her like one or two or three or four five six times ...

alright then dawwwg. eyshawn was trippin earlier, on some serious case of the ex shit. I wanted to pat him on the back and let him know everything would be okay but I didn't wanna lie at the same time. my tish tash met me at the whole foods store and shit. we went berry picking. strawberries, blackberries, blueberries. hella berries, man. foreal. berrie central. and I was looking too cheetahlicious in my goddamn animal print bangles. mikey told me so himself. lemme find out cheetahlicious is a word.

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its extra lame when niggas try hard to make it look like they ain't trying hard. ha. nigga said "I'm trying to initiate a friendship with yo tiny ass." next. I ain't tell y'all about these cute ass hello kitty boyshorts I bought at some department store. hello kitty chills on my butt on her spare time. and woah! niggas are a goddamn mess. y'all ain't bout it! I'm cleansed, lemme chill. holla.

Jealousy, we gotta swallow it ...

Yous a bugga - boo. Anyway, today was completely poppin. I met an " obi man " who happened to be my cousins boyfriend. He grows " ganja " in his backyard and drinks it in tea. He gave me the ill ass massage too. Something called acupressure. He said he took the bad energy outta my body and I believe it. I'm on cloud nine right now. Niggas ain't bringing me daaahn!

Why so serious?

Shit. I'm in the car with my brothers and cousins. I had a good ass day. I'm gonna get to mi casa and finish my goddamn homework. Boing! I'll be back to blog later, I promise. Holla.

But in the physical, its like I'ma be trife forever.

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I'm not really feelin those print screens. I mean, the shit looks super big and doofy. please proceed to downgrade. my playlist is infested with r&b music. I can diggggg it though. my day was completely interesting. I spent most of the day with my cousins reds and diamond. we were somewhere in the cuts of virginia. the funeral service was nice, ghetto but ... nice. my grandma would've liked it. I bet. my older cousin wants to take me to get my nose / lip peirced tomorrow. I may consider it and shit. depending on how I'm feeling. I also deserve a pat on the back because I completed 99% of my homework. the other 1% will be completed tomorrow. put it in the ayerrrr.

enjoy the playlist and shit. I'll holla.

Straps on my shoulders, but I don't wear overalls.

anthony: I got hair around my nipples

I finally found out old dudes name : brian. I shall not forget after this moment. I'm super happy right now because the love of my life was just returned to me ( my sidekick ) and I have plans to get fucked the fuck up this weekend. I cannot wait. TEZ KEEPS CALLING ME BIG BODY. tasha has a big crush on my nigga chinky. oh fucking boyyeee. and melquan only want me for my pimp juice. weeeooooohhh ! nah but he wanna do something friday night. dinner or something. he said we have to because we haven't had time to get to know each other. I had the illest " nigga what ? " face on. but eh I'll see. he seems aight ... anyway I spent seven fucking dollars on breakfast this morning. what the fuck? but um .. I'm a beast niggas know I don't speak I roar. I have mad homework to do and I can't because I left my fucking book at this nigga mickeys house. I'm gonna get it tomorrow before I head out to virginia for the funeral. :/ holla.

" You bout to be the reason ya mom don't get dicked tonight. "

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me and the goonsters had a nice afternoon. my freaking mood is through the roof now, and everything is definitely looking more worth while. I haven't got much to say. I'm anticipating the arrival of my precious sidekick so I can finally say boo to this goddamn laptop. suck it or not? holla.

People switch up like seasons ...

& everything that happens - happens for a reason. I'm trying to keep that in mind. but my weekend was chill. I got this bomb ass dress from century 21 last night. ugh I'm freaking in love. :/ my grandmas funeral is tuesday afternoon. I'm so not ready. I forced my mom to watch saw ( two ) with me last night. she was all under the covers being a little pussy girl. I watched it like the thug dizzle I am though. I called natasha* but she didn't answer and hasn't called me back. I'm hoping shes okay.

I don't know what passive is but I've just been told that I am not passive. by big yellow eyshawn the red bull model. LMAO.

michael michael michael. - clicks my heels together. anyway LOL I spent about thirty minutes trying to find something to do with my layout on fucking assspot. I finally settled for this plain shit. eh it has me satisfied for the time being. tomorrows the day my kick is supposedly arriving. I cannot wait. I shall then be able to continue my goddamn story. I think the fucking doctor jynxed me too. blah. I'll holla.

" guhl I hurd you had da sweetest pussy in nawthcahlina. "

[ edit ] passive means submissive, and I can't fit into my lucky booty butt daisy duke shorts. what the fuck? my metabolism is slowing thee fuck down. pretty soon I'm gonna be the size as ( you know who ). womp womp womp. and word is ikes butt fucking you texas niggas. wheres my deucito? I miss my bfrenemyf. foreal. [ /edit ]

Both got some things thats upsetting us ...

I just got to my moms house. I'm on the old old computer, and I hate meebo. I honestly can't wait until I get my new sidekick. as much as I hate t-mobile and everything they stand for, the sidekick is my first love. foreal.

my mom found four long lost cousins of ours going through my grandmas phone book. I think thats exciting, meeting family I've never even heard of before. I got on this computer and my mom had an e-mail open, and I read it ( nosey me ). it was a short passage about my grandma. I had no idea she was a beautician, or that her mom died during childbirth. interesting shit. her birthday was july 17 1909. amazing, huh? and her and my great grandfather ( whom I never met, he went back to puerto rico I think ) got married in 1931. ahh.

marcus: tell me something worth hearing....you've always been exceptional for that

tasha went with devon to get the business done to her. not like that. but yeah. idk why marcus decides he wants to be bffl all of a sudden lol. I'll pass. but my foots asleep and I think my burritos are done.

holla.

I used to love him, now I don't.

my night was coo. I spent most of it talking to michael about random nonsense. and listening to him watch one of his movies, while I ate my last s'mores. I need to buy more chocolate. boo to that nigga though. I'm selling his spic ass, I promise. whos tryna buy him? - looks around

tashaa .: " Put me onn , put me on likee ! "
tashaa .: I'm like wtf , shes lovestruckedd lmao .

I'm currently bumpin lauryn hill on some random imeem playlist. its setting the right mood for me to sleep in. I'm talking to mara on yahoo and shit. I ordered definitely maybe on demand and fought sleep trying to watch it. lmao it was a cute movie .. I was just beat. I'm in love with the little girl in it. but I swear the guy looks like a ken doll. foreal. erm, I wrote some shit tonight. & you also can't say I didn't try, huh? :/

thanks mara for the sidebar pic. the freakin colors of my blog are hideous right now, but its 3:13 am and I'm in no mood to fix them. I promise I'll do it sometime this weekend.

I'll holla.

Oh, niggas is mad? Wait - lemme find a goddamn to give...

I went to the doctors today. I got two shots, and one prick on my finger. it hurt soo bad. niggas had me pissin in cups and shit. eh. I was questioned about my sex life and asked if I know about STDs and safe sex. I learned that I'm anemic. ehm... so they gave me two pills to take. one twice a day, and one once a day. boo. I swear I'm not gonna remember to take them. and they said I might need to eat healthier ( LMAO ). they made me feel like a complete freakin fatass. jeezy kapeezy.

what y'all talkin? I'll get right back on my shit.

these niggas pissed me thee fuck off today. I swear I was three seconds from puttin hands on eyshawn. and mikey could've got fucked up, too. and is could've not a word? wtf...

I had a nice long conversation with t-mobile last night. after speaking to three or four different people, this nigga "craig" seemed more than glad to help me out. I should be recieving my new sidekick on monday, and let there be one problem with it and I'm breaking. I promise.

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peep kemia and her huge ass. I'm not as short as I look, shes just extra super tall. foreal. I broke my fucking juicy bracelet. arggghhh. but um I shall now go pick my bad ass niece up from the bus stop. I'll holla.

He don't fuck the bitches, I fuck the bitches.

I'm eating a goddamn s'more, minus the chocolate. life is aight I guess. I put in an application for dunkin donuts. I hope I get a call, I swear I'll be drinking iced lattes and eating flatbread sandwiches DAILY. foreal. and I swear I completely forgot about 9/11 until like the middle of the moment of silence during one of my classes. LOL I felt like a complete assman.

my dad called t-mobile about my goddamn sidekick. I told his black ass they send me broken phones so I'll eventually say fuck it and get the 08 or something. I shall prevail though. no new sidekick for my ass. the ID has all I need. ;D

tashas boyfriends all emo because of whats going down on saturday. ehh I can't say I'm the happiest camper neither but I'm gonna be there for her no matter what because, yanno? I have to. that's what best friends do. I'm obligated.

in reference to my other situation : womp womp womp. I hate the fact that... eh... nevermind. y'all know how that goes...

At first the situation had me deep in doubt...

I seriously hate when people eat / drink loud. that shit is like the biggest pet peeve of mine. not only is it rude, its fucking disgusting. I'm seriously fighting the urge to punch this bitch in her throat.

woosah. woosah. woosah.

its whatever. I'm extra coo though. foreal. " WHO YOU IZ TRYNA BAG? " eh. I'm considering getting a job at dunkn donuts over here, which tasha thinks is the funniest thing in the world.

tashaa .: The funniest shit about you applying to dunkn dounuts
tashaa .: Is that you know the order of the dounuts & muffins
tashaa .: & I know this because you told me three times.
tashaa .: "First row is blueberry muffins, banana muffins, chocolate muffins... bla bla"
tashaa .: Lmao herb.

well excuse the shit outta me. denggg though homie. this nigga just called me a dick in the booty ass ho. I shall not get into it. I'm gonna go write or some shit. I'll holla.

Soon you'll understand.

R.I.P. Grandma Becca. :/

I'm currently eating s'mores. this has become part of my daily routine. unhealthy, I know. but its so delicious. - sighs.

I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar.

today was aight. I went to class, yada yada .. met up with peoples, went to lunch .. blah blah y'all know how it goes. my head started pounding about an hour ago. ughh all I wanted to do was come home, have some s'mores and then lay my ass in bed til later. I'm gonna do that after this blog. uh huh...

I have nothing else to say. but in another section of my life I'm very " ehh " right now. its gonna be hard but whatever, I'll get through it. I'm a solider, y'all know that. if a certain person decides that petty fights aren't worth losing me, then I'll be happy. if that certain person can't make that realization then maybe I was wasting this said persons time.

I'll holla.

Pockets full of money and some dark shades.

I burned my finger being a fucking stupid ass. trying to brush crumbs off the goddamn stove while it was on. :/ silly me. I was focused on my little mushmellows and chocolate and I had no time for petty shit like turning off the stove - ha. I think I have a newfound addiction to s'mores though. I was feinding for them in class. terrible, terrible.

this weekend, tashas going to get the you - know - what. she wants me to come. devons going with us I guess. they're so cute, lol. arguing on the phone like a married couple and shit. I despise them.

him: why didn't you call back last night
her: man I went with my moms :/
her: - looks at me & shrugs
him: YOU LYIN! YOU ALWAYS LYIN TO ME! YOU TOLD ME YOU WAS IN THE SHOWER!

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him: I'm gonna get you that hat you wanted.
her: woah, that was like way back when we first met ...
him: yeah I know, it was purple...
her: - looks at me
her: god he remembers everything !

she thinks its gay but I think its adorable. I finished reading harry pottuh. I must say, a bitch did tear up. my poor, poor dumbledore. I swear I had a crush on his ass. he coulda got the bidness. - coughs. um. I hit up the library and got another book though. I'm waiting til they upgrade and get the seventh. I hella can't wait!

I'm ranting.

I'm definitely not feeling the way certain people treat me, foreal. like on some dead buttcheeks serious shit? it's got me looking at you like, " foreal? is this how they gonna act now? " it just amazes me. theres certain things I know I deseve. being treated well is one of them. maybe that's just me though.

I need new buddies. - stares at my yahoo list. y'all disgust me. I guess its about that time though. I'm gonna go take my "jeanripowernap" ( as jay calls it ) and thennn do homework later when I'm up and energized. then call him if he decides to act right. eh.

I'll holla.

Dead.

I don't know if its hormones getting to me or what. I'm so fucking beat god, y'all don't understand. heres a quick blog for you niggas...

• classes were fucking lame. only good thing is I spent my lunch break with natashas ass, talking shit as usual. that pretty much made my morning.
• my sidekick broke. :/ the screen won't turn on - again! and I got it literally like a month ago. what the fuck kind of bullshittery is t-mobile on?
  
• my current baby balance on myspace is uno. lmfao bawlin !
• I seriously took like four midols, three advils and four more motrins in all yesterday. those pills had me all sorts of fucked up... spinnin rooms, heavy breathin and all that. never again.
• I miss my moms though. we had a nice weekend, talked a lot and shit. I never ever miss her so this feels kinda weird. I called her when I got home ... just to say hi. I'm hella lame lmao.
  
• I found out my friend got into a fight at a party over here friday night. she got fucked up. I was supposed to hit it up with her but I went to my moms instead. now she's blaming her ass whoopin on me. womps. bitch bye.
• the boyfriend 100% completely deaded me last night. hung up right in my face and shit. its all good in the hood though. I'll live. I just hope he breaks his foot or something while he's at work. that'd make me happy right now ( notrlybutkindayeahactually ).
  
• diamonds been neglecting our chirrens as I do all the work taking care of those little african mothafuckas. and wtf, I don't even like marley like that. I'm about to send her ass to the left to the left. foreal.

I'll be back sometime later y'all. after I handle my bidness. you know, homework / s'mores / baldwin hills / harry potter? holla.

I told him I was through with that ...

so I just deleted all of the songs on my playlist, and added like four. I was tired of goddamn having a huge list of thirty songs and having to press nxt everytime I heard one I played out. and I definitely played out 95% of them. whatever. gym class heroes and shwayze are the shit. I swear I have a newfound crush on this nigga and his black ass. I was watching his show and I realized how cute he was. I'm gonna find him and cuff him. believe me or not, shit.

my reflexes are hella quick and my mom likes lil wayne. :/

school tomorrow, ugh. I swear the weekend always flies the fuck by. the goddamn rain ruined my whole two days of freedom. - sighs. I needed to talk to erin last night and the nigga was either completely m.i.a. or ignoring the shit outta me. or maybe a mixture of both. either way - I was heartbroken. I see how much he cares.

Just give me a cool drink of water 'fore I diiiie;

This will be a long one. Lets begin with a random fact : Drey sucked on my toes this morning. - giggles

What's good, kids? I'll tell you, these goddamn salt and vinegar chips are what the fuck is good. My nana got me up on them, and I'm fucking addicted. Hell yeah. Speaking of goddamn foods, I made smores tonight. I was feinding, and I've only had one in my entire life. Me and my mom went to hella stores just to find goddamn marshmallows and shit. Hood supermarkets do NOT sell them. Thanks to Walmart, we found them! But no luck with the gram crackers. No fucking gram crackers? I was hella suprised. I used goddamn sugar cookies instead :]. Yummy.

This nigga just called me a " puta ". Shittin me ...

Erm, I've been spending the day doing my hair, staring at the rain outside, reading HP, and trying to soothe my goddamn cramps. Ugh. I swear rain makes everything 3 x worse, too. AND after I spent 4 hours washing, conditioning, blow drying, flat ironing, curling, and then wrapping my hair ... the humidity fucked it up! I wanted to die. Obviously me and Tasha didn't make it to the BBQ. Goddamn rain, yo. In two wknds, me and the bitch are headed to Virginia to do the unforgivable though. :/ Trust me, I can wait. - rolls eyes

Some niggas truely get on my last nerve. Oh, and I need a new myspace babie daddy. This bitch Diamond just ain't cuttin it. Hoe ass going around getting pregnant by other niggas. Bitch, boo ( I'm actually crying on the inside ).

myspace.com/miss__sunshineee

" Oh sorry. I thought I was a beast. "

okay, real quick update before I head out.

• me and the boyfriend are back on good terms. we had some lucious loving last night. ahem...
• I freaking switched my entire schedule up. I wanna drop spanish. :/ but I got the goons in the class, lmao. " do you guys know who invaded spain? " bangout nigga, duh. I goddamn love my sociology teacher though. the bitch is the business.
• me and my dad aren't really seeing eye to eye right now. I'm going to my moms for the weekened.
• I'm sooo through with hella shit. like foreal.
• I'm going to a BBQ with my best friend tomorrow, whom had a fucking panic attack today when I stopped by her house. the bitch was screaming and carrying on. I almost fought her ass.
• niggas are so fucking lame! like seriously. why lie about having a kid? and your lies are so not goddamn in place. when you told me that, I seriously laughed like " this nigga must think I'm fucking retarded. "
• I got the sixth harry potter book from the library. I'm so hyped to read it! it should keep me busy for like eh, a week. party over here, haaay!
• I still haven't continued my story. on a good note, though? I got some ideas to continue it. I just have to sit my ass down and write. blam blamma !
• I had thee best iced latte today.

alright, y'all. I'll holla.

One bitch with no weapons at war ...

But I'm an army.

:/

Chill for a minute ...
I'll be back.

It's I against the world - and I'm strapped.

arghh. I went by the tattoo place but my tattoo guy wasn't there! and I only want him to do my tattoo so :/. but anyway freddy got his tounge peirced. he was scared like a little bitchass man I swear. nigga you are a grown ass man. take this shit, take it!

him: - staring at a paper
him: you know when you re-arrange the letters in mother in law ...
him: - looks at me
him: it spells ... woman hitler?
me: :/ ...
him: yeah. just saying ...
him: - looks away

some nigga had the audacity to try to talk to me with some goddamn MOB tatted on his arm. I was gonna give him a piece of my mind but I decided otherwise. he picked a good day. I'll give him that.

imagine if nobody had skin? lmao that would be some crazy shit. and like you could see everybodys heart and organs and what not. speaking of organs, I had the wierdest goddamn dream last night about ( blankity blank ) and his goddamn bitch. in my dream I was beating her ass but I had goddamn cuts on my leg and she threw fucking lemon juice on them. and then ( blankity blank ) came and hes like okay guys stop. or whatever and my goddamn grandpa came and was like were you guys fighting?! and I'm like yeah grandpa! then he took me to my moms house. :/ idk it means something, I tell you.

I don't got no cookies fah youu!

I guess I'll continue my story just for vanessa sometime this evening. I don't know whats gonna happen lmfao but I'll figure something out. and I'm definitely making a goddamn decision about something, tonight. anything. I hate being left in the dark about shit, foreal. and I still have that big ass pink fuck you post it on my forehead. I'm not taking it off. I feel like it belongs there. womp.

I totally wanna punch you in your crap lousy face.

well vanessa completely sucks big german balls right now. I hella vented to her black ass and she completely BAILED on me. all she cares about is my nipples. she hella shits on my feelings though.

vanessa: Was it about Drey?
vanessa: Or the lactation in your nipples

you see what I mean though? and she won't stop calling me hand sized. anyway my nipples were hella lactating when I was in the shower. not hella but okay, I can almost swear that there was some milkage. I almost shitted myself, I didn't think it was normal. I called my sister on some serious ass " GIRL MY NIPPLES IS LACTATING! " she said to google it, and that I did. most of the sites that came up were goddamn porn sites but I found out that its something to do with my hormones acting up. blah blah yada yada all I care was that my boobs weren't fucked. and they're not! go me.

vanessa read my story and she hella liked it! she says I should write more but eh, I'm stuck lmao. I shall try though, I shall try.
after my classes tomorrow I'm considering stopping by this tattoo place to hear about mine. how much it'll cost, how long it'll take and all that next shit. idk I may get my lip pierced right then if I don't freak out. or maybe my clit ( just kidding im too pussy for that. no pun intended lmfao ). and I just wanna rip your skin off and wear it to my friends birthday party thats coming up! - runs

" They call it murder. "

!@#$%: Suttin about you makes me wanna tear others down
!@#$%: Ur like satan

I have nothing to blog about but I'm in the blogging mood so this will be really quick. I've decided to drop the bc. I feel like I'm gonna gain hella weight or something. I want a pet hamster. I'm dead buttcheeks though like I'm so ready to go buy one my damn self. I need a job first though. ehh. its a nice day outside and freddy wants to go out for ice cream. " ...you like lattes though, right? " ya goddamn right I do! boom. I'll holla.

" My nickname was Jesus in high school. "

I keep backspacing - typing - backspacing my goddamn blogs. I promise I'm not gonna backspace this one. foreal. lets get to it.

jarells myspace babie is extremely sexy. I don't know where he got her little dress from but shes stylin on me right now. I'm jealous, don't mind me. ehm, fredward was acting suspect today. being extra quiet in the car and what - not. vanessa has decided to drop me off on the curb so she can pursue some german nigga. well fuck you too, yo bighead.

vanessa: Ol I sound like dark vador and I had shit shoved down my throat lookin ass

well shit. I'm dreading the return of winter. I freakin hate the cold. christmas is getting closer and closer with the passing days. I'm excited. and I have work to do for my sociology class. eh :/ although I love the class with my heart, I hate work. I promised myself I was gonna be focused this year and I'm not gonna lie to myself.

Freddy B.: Girl u no u mexican
Freddy B.: Wit yo short stubby legs
Freddy B.: They look like baby hotdogs
xjaebabyy: LMFAO DAMN.

I'll be back to blog later. :/

Part two.

" What goes around comes around again
So the same rules apply from now til then "

Although I've been blogging like crazy all night, I felt the need to do it once again. I have nothing important left to say so this will be one long ass rant. Blah.

text message received:
JigSaw gone be in yo livin room when u wakeup

I finally watched the second half of saw three. It was terrible :/. And even though saw isn't an " omg monsters under mah bed !!1 " movie, I still feel like this nigga is hiding in the closet / under my bed / in the bathroom / in my hamper / in the crevices of my house. I believe Jigsaw is an understandable person though. I dig his lessons and everything. Just the way he goes about teaching them are boarderline extreme.

I'm too through with this nigga eyshawn. He was acting super stank for no apparent reason tonight. I'm guessing aunt flow came to visit. Its alright, I got somethin for YO bright yellow ass tomorrow. Jeezy @ mark aka mike bka max cka matt. - stares at my phone. I'm truly amazed.

I'm thinking maybe I need to get my head / priorities straight. Mhm. And you niggas are a goddamn trip. A big ass, huge trip. I'm coo on that note though. I feel like this mothafucka put a huge ass goddamn fuck you post it on my forehead. Yeah? Fuck you too.

I'm probably and most likely gonna delete this blog when I realize what I typed tomorrow. Womp. Lemme head to sleep. I got class in a bit.

" Jae? Oh. Nothing, NOTHING. "

I'm sitting in my favorite chair watching saw three. A certain somebody who will remain nameless finally helped me grow the balls to be able to sit through this nasty shit, and look at niggas open heads and what not. Lol thanks lovebug... I'm all extra good and shit though. Ima thug. I ain't no mark ass trick, bitch!

Foreal. :/

But I need a job, y'all. Since niggas gone back to school I'm gonna try to hit up one of the malls over here and work at a clothes store or something. I hate supermarkets. I'm gonna try to avoid those. And I have a newfound crush on Ruben Studdard. If I was a chubby chaser, I'd definitely be going after that big ... beautiful teddy bear :]. Bam !

And ... you niggas are something the fuck else. I'm just gonna chuckle & keep it moving. No tears shed & no sleep lost. I just hope its the same when the shoes on the other foot. I'll holla.

" The buttahfly dawss ! "

I'm watching spongebob. My day was interesting. I'm too fucking through though. I met the most interesting people and then some. A nigga was overly high lol. My dunks are fuckedup, scuffed and all that. Fucking crowds and shit. I now have a really bad headache and a sexy ass bracelet. Yes, I am stylin on y'all.

I DON'T WANNA DEAD YOU NIGGAS, BUT ...

I have a feeling I'm gonna wake up in a few hours and not be able to sleep. At that time, I'll continue my story on my livejournal. Even though it was my first time and all, shit wasn't all that bad. Yeeeah! Go me. I'm trying to remember something. I hella can't remember. I hella can't. :/ Jeez. Holla though.

" The buttahfly dawss ! "

I'm watching spongebob. My day was interesting. I'm too fucking through though. I met the most interesting people and then some. A nigga was overly high lol. My dunks are fuckedup, scuffed and all that. Fucking crowds and shit. I now have a really bad headache and a sexy ass bracelet. Yes, I am stylin on y'all.

I DON'T WANNA DEAD YOU NIGGAS, BUT ...

I have a feeling I'm gonna wake up in a few hours and not be able to sleep. At that time, I'll continue my story on livejournal. Even though it was my first time and all, shit wasn't all that bad. Yeeeah! Go me. I'm trying to remember something. I hella can't remember. I hella can't. :/ Jeez. Holla though.

" You smell like corroding ass particles. "

My right ear is lower than my left, and the worlds coming to a goddamn end. Oh fucking no. Tasha, eyshawn and mikey make me completely sick though foreal :/. Yesterday Diamond was being a horrible parent to our children, overfeeding the two girls we have to the point where they're not happy, then adopting a boy child whom she calls the "albino". THEN making another girl. Oh my god. Diamond, I'm considering a divorce. Seriously.

Anyway I swore someone was trying to break into my house last night. Its cool though, I got my nun chucks and sat patiently waiting for a nigga to run up. " go ahead and act a fool like you really wanna step to this ... " Nobody really wanted to step to this, apparently.

Smh @ the hurricane in new orleans. Somebody is just after them niggas, huh? They decided to try a second time. With the goon gustav. Lmao I'm trippin ... Last night I suffered a serious case of insomnia and didn't fall asleep until 6:30. I decided to write a bit in my livejournal. Picture me an author. Pfsh.