its like a goddamn winter wonderland outside. my whole fucking block is white. I'm hoping that shit melts before the weekend, though. I'm sitting on the window ledge in my living room (yes that shit is big enough for me to sit on), and drinking my hot chocolate .. with the little ass marshmallows. my hair is a curly ass mess and I'm wearing a wife beater and sweats. I'm the only one here but I think I need the alone time. I feel hella good right now. I found peace within myself today. nah, but I did watch Borat with eyshawn. I also went over to melquans house and helped him with his christmas tree. I was in the christmas spirit. I plan on heading to the strip tomorrow to see if I can get my niece the jordans she wants (I fucking know .. what kid wants jordans?), and some shit for my niggas. I got this nice ass bob marley book in the library, and its chillin next to me. my dad finally fixed the lights down here so a nigga can read! LOL. I think I'm gonna get another tattoo somewhere in early january. you know, start the year off right. something on my ankle. mickey believes I'm all turned out due to my lip peircing and my first tat, but I disagree. I got the grades to some of my finals and shit. who would've thought I'd get an A- in spanish? talk about someone who's super happy ..
MelQuan : Ima turn it up nxt time I go to da gym
MelQuan : Bout ur volleyball nets
MelQuan : "There's a little girl out there dat got nothing else to live for!!!"
Cause of me .. all the niggas wanna be you.
I swear I'm far from emo but I'm def. not anywhere near a happy camper either. niggas are dissapointing, is all. just got me a bit aggy and shit. that's how it goes though. on a lighter note .. I had some bombin' ass mac and cheese. joe put his mothafuckin' foot in that bitch. I ain't mad though. I'd pay $3.49 for another plate without a second thought. foreal. I had so much seafood last night I wouldn't be suprised if I turned into a shrimp lmao. talk about a bitch seriously going in. hmph.
its nice outside, I'd say. about sixty degrees. xmas is in eleven days. crazy fuckin' shit. feels like just yesterday I was at the beach writing my name in the sand and buying overpriced ice cream. that's virginia beach for ya. fine niggas and high prices. LOL. I wanna go see (insert random name here) on ice with these niggas but they frontin. "it be cold in there dawg .. " but they wanna go to an ice cream factory. shittin' me. have y'all fun and I'll have mine.
ps : I can't wait to hit up the gym tomorrow. I'm gonna have sweet dreams about volleyball and my buns of steel tonight. oh, and I'm buying my brother a bedazzler for xmas. its on his wishlist.
its nice outside, I'd say. about sixty degrees. xmas is in eleven days. crazy fuckin' shit. feels like just yesterday I was at the beach writing my name in the sand and buying overpriced ice cream. that's virginia beach for ya. fine niggas and high prices. LOL. I wanna go see (insert random name here) on ice with these niggas but they frontin. "it be cold in there dawg .. " but they wanna go to an ice cream factory. shittin' me. have y'all fun and I'll have mine.
ps : I can't wait to hit up the gym tomorrow. I'm gonna have sweet dreams about volleyball and my buns of steel tonight. oh, and I'm buying my brother a bedazzler for xmas. its on his wishlist.
You love me. I hate you.
I admit I fell in love with his frame .. and to make him feel special I let him call me by my government name.
its been a minute since I've had the time / energy or been in the mood to blog. y'all know how it goes though. finals are a mess. I cannot wait for this shit to be over. I've been studying but definitely not as much as I could have been. I missed a few days of classes due to my goddamn frail ass body so I'm making up english work right now (nah .. I took a break but I'll get right back on that LOL). me and my mother finally decided something was wrong with me so I went to the doctors and it seems as if I'm going in circles. they're gonna put me on pills to "control the situation". my situation. I was close to the edge for most of this week but I'm slowly but surely calming my little ass back down. I turned off self destruct mode. I'm happy. I'm currently sitting on my bed listening to some random playlist. my feet are going numb under the weight of my legs. its storming outside. storms usually foreshadow bad things to come in my life. my nose is runny and my throat is on its way to being super sore. I feel a cold coming on. I also fell in love with curtis jackson. smh. I .. am not ashamed. rant rant ramble ramble. I'll holla.
its been a minute since I've had the time / energy or been in the mood to blog. y'all know how it goes though. finals are a mess. I cannot wait for this shit to be over. I've been studying but definitely not as much as I could have been. I missed a few days of classes due to my goddamn frail ass body so I'm making up english work right now (nah .. I took a break but I'll get right back on that LOL). me and my mother finally decided something was wrong with me so I went to the doctors and it seems as if I'm going in circles. they're gonna put me on pills to "control the situation". my situation. I was close to the edge for most of this week but I'm slowly but surely calming my little ass back down. I turned off self destruct mode. I'm happy. I'm currently sitting on my bed listening to some random playlist. my feet are going numb under the weight of my legs. its storming outside. storms usually foreshadow bad things to come in my life. my nose is runny and my throat is on its way to being super sore. I feel a cold coming on. I also fell in love with curtis jackson. smh. I .. am not ashamed. rant rant ramble ramble. I'll holla.
You're gonna want me back, you're gonna need me.
I'm currently sitting indian style on the floor next to my grandmas bed listening to music. this bag of skittles is like the size of my head. LOL. y'all shut up. damn. my hairs in a loose ponytail and I'm wearing my hello kitty boyshorts and a sports bra. my tummys all hangin' out and shit (I gained a million pounds today eating tacos and cheesy fries and the works). I'm singing my heart out to some goddamn lauryn hill. its snowing lightly outside and it looks hella pretty. I feel goooood. I'm tired and all but not sleepy. not yet. the holidays are coming too quick for me. it's cuffin season once again. time to cuddle up with your little tenderonis and shit. aww. slow hand clap for y'all goddamn asses (I'm super bitter .. don't mind me). I promise that once santa gets his fat ass to the mall, I'm in there like swim wear. I want a picture with that nigga! goddamn. here I go rambling and shit. why am I only getting yellow skittles outta this goddamn bag?! eh. my moms should be home soon. the silence in this house is giving me the heebies.
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(lookin' like a cup full of sunshine!)
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(lookin' like a cup full of sunshine!)
( "Get me a wet towel so you can wipe my face." )
me : when's your birthday?
saniyah : it just passed
me : when?
saniyah : just now
me : what day?
saniyah : monday
diamond : december?
saniyah : yeah.
diamond : first?
saniyah : yeah.
me : ooh.
saniyah : yeah. but I have one in july too.
me : yeah?
saniyah : yeah. march april november.
me : LMFAOOOOOOO.
what kinda five year olds favorite color is black? <3333
saniyah : it just passed
me : when?
saniyah : just now
me : what day?
saniyah : monday
diamond : december?
saniyah : yeah.
diamond : first?
saniyah : yeah.
me : ooh.
saniyah : yeah. but I have one in july too.
me : yeah?
saniyah : yeah. march april november.
me : LMFAOOOOOOO.
what kinda five year olds favorite color is black? <3333
( A street car named Desire )
text message received:
U forgot my birthday :(. I seen u runnin 2 ur car 2day tho
blah. its almost two a.m. and I'm not tired for nothing, lol. I've been eating pretzels and reading this wack ass book I got from this street vendor (who was also the author). I actually happened to watch 50s show on demand and I'm kinda feelin it. his teeth are flippin gorgeous too. I was atonished. "curtis jackson .. is sexy? aw hell na." I mean .. what is the world coming to? right. anyway man, I had found twenty bucks that my mom apparently hid in my bag. I was way too happy because I've been leaning on the broke side and my tanks almost on E. woop woop! I spent an hour at the gym playing volleyball with B. well, I was playing volleyball. I don't know what that nigga was doing. I have to babysit my ride or die saniyah on saturday. my friends daughter and shit. she's a mess and a half. I never met a little girl so hyper. and who constantly wants cookies. I'm lowkey happy though, I fucks with her.
"ooooooh chile. things are gonna get easier."
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U forgot my birthday :(. I seen u runnin 2 ur car 2day tho
blah. its almost two a.m. and I'm not tired for nothing, lol. I've been eating pretzels and reading this wack ass book I got from this street vendor (who was also the author). I actually happened to watch 50s show on demand and I'm kinda feelin it. his teeth are flippin gorgeous too. I was atonished. "curtis jackson .. is sexy? aw hell na." I mean .. what is the world coming to? right. anyway man, I had found twenty bucks that my mom apparently hid in my bag. I was way too happy because I've been leaning on the broke side and my tanks almost on E. woop woop! I spent an hour at the gym playing volleyball with B. well, I was playing volleyball. I don't know what that nigga was doing. I have to babysit my ride or die saniyah on saturday. my friends daughter and shit. she's a mess and a half. I never met a little girl so hyper. and who constantly wants cookies. I'm lowkey happy though, I fucks with her.
"ooooooh chile. things are gonna get easier."
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damn homie. I got no sleep at all last night. none. I stayed up writing this english essay, and attempting this math shit. I'm running off a caramel latte. I can tell todays gonna suck. I don't know who the dread was with the limp this morning, but he was on some otherness. leans and limps are not cute (I mean .. I'll let mickey slide .. I know its not his fault. the scolyosis. y'all should see him ride a bike LOL). anywho, I'm sitting in dunkin donuts with my half eaten flatbreat sandwich before my classes start. I need a job man. freeloading off my parents will not suffice. and yanno .. I've come to hate the male species with a burning passion. its whatever though. anddd my internets back on! I plan on going to my moms house after school and picking up the camera. I'll holla.